Hello All,
Good God, I love my little Dixie. She is my life. NO one is sadder or is trying harder to figure this out than I am. I chose Dixie over a relationship if that tells you how much I love her and how much this is breaking my heart and spirit. SO, I WANT YOU ALL TO STOP WORRYING FOR THE DURATION ABOUT MY PUTTING HER TO SLEEP!!! The moment that possibility comes to mind, I burst into tears cause I cannot even THINK LIKE THAT--I just cant. But I do want to straighten out something.
There is no rescue group or anyone else who could do better with Dixie that I could or am doing. I am financially extremely sound, retired, middle aged, single, private home and RV (which I Purchased only so I would never have to leave Dixie in a kennel or even with a trusted friend--I WANT HER WITH ME). love her more than I can say and well, if she cannot make it with me, she cannot make it anywhere--that is clear to all the professionals I have spoken with. Giving her to any rescue group would destroy my life--I simply could NOT LIVE WITH THAT because I know, KNOW that the care she is getting with me cannot be beaten. So that is out of the question. Let's hope that whatever it is that is setting her off so badly eventually has a solution.
UPdate: I took her to my vet today who did agree that things have gotten so out of control within Dixie that bloodwork is needed. She still believes that it will show nothing and that is strictly behavioral but now she agrees that we have to RULE OUT since this is day four of her Cujo-like behavior--AND I AM NOT KIDDING. She is basically testing Dixie's liver as I know that Yorkies, particularly at the very age Dixie is, sometimes have this genetic liver shunt problem and this can cause exactly what is happening to Dixie. She doesn't think that this is so with Dixie but she is testing for this and a few other key things that could cause this horrendous and miserable change in her.
Tomorrow, I am seeing a VET-behaviorist, a very rare combo. I am driving 70 miles to this place and paying $250 for an hour of her time. I have filled out eight pages of questions already and faxed them to this woman. My vet is faxing the blood results to this other VET who is also a behaviorist and well, I have my fingers crossed and my prayers to the heavens (and I am not even rellgious)that something, someone, somehow will be able to help my little girl. Is this the behavior of a woman who is even thinking of putting her glorious Yorkie down? Of course not!! I am digging in and preparing to do whatever it takes to get my pet back, to get my little love back to the happy and unfearful companion she was, JUST LAST WEEK. Damn.
My vet and I are thinking that it might be something in this house that is spooking her--but I guess we will never know. The moment I get her out the front door of this house she is much better. So many clues to her GOOD behaviors and hardly any to the negative ones--making me nuts.
Anyway, tomorrow Dixie and I are seeing this Vet-behaviorist and between all of us, I am hoping beyond hope that Dixie will be able to return to the little pooch I had before. I she doesn't, I don't know how we are going to continue to live like this--I want to travel and be able to trust her and mostly, I want my loving companion back.
I am completely destroyed over this but just a little hopeful that this woman tomorrow will have some ideas. I will keep you all as much in the Dixie Loop as I can along the way. This is too sad for words.
If someone will give me directions I will post a pic of this totally gorgeous beauty who was bred for show. nite all, Daawg |