I am sorry your going through this. It does get better in time. I lost My Mother and My Husbands Dad who I really loved in one year so it seemed like there was a gray cloud over my house for a while. The holidays are never the same. My best advice I can give you is to get out make friends, join clubs and spend time with other loved ones. We spend alot of time with My Husbands Mom and go on vacations with her . It will get easier in time |