I'm so sorry. I know how bad this makes you feel. Over 10 years ago I had to have my first yorkie Candy put to sleep. She was 12 -13 years old every time I would pick her up she would cry from what the vet said were tumors all over her body. She had cataracts on her eys so she was totally blind. The morning I took her to the vet she had been sick for a day or two throwing up and it had started to turn bloody and of course she also had diahrreah. So when I got to the vet we decided it was best for her to just put her to sleep. Of course I cried when he told me what I already knew in my heart needed to be done. It was still very hard.
The vet asked me if I wanted to be there with her and I just couldn't bear it. I wish now that I had but at the time I couldn't do it. It was all I could do to take her from when they put her back in the back I had brought her in. I cried all the way home. Then then hard part when my son got home he took her across the creek and buried her. Then I cried some more. I told my husband that whenever it had to be done again he would have to do it. Which may not be too far in the future we have a 14 year old shih tzu. Luckily the only thing really wrong with her is just old age. she is not sick thank goodness.
Again, I'm so sorry. |