yeah, you guys are right.... Ya know... I have a hard time remembering that I KNOW myself and what I want. When I was with my ex I was HAPPY too... even w/o marriage, things went downhill when I started to listen to others say how it was weird we were together 9 years w/o getting married, so then I thought 'well we better get married' I felt pressure everywhere i turned, people making me feel insecure about my relationship 'well if he hasn't married you by now he doesn't love you, trust me.' so I listened and harped and my once happy relationship went downhill FAST! Then it was over... I didnt even FEEL the NEED to get married until I was being pressured by everyone else who said it was WRONG! WEIRD! GGGRRRRRR I need to listen to myself only... I have a hard time doing that. Sometimes I feel like I need to get away from here... away from everyone around me and start over elsewhere.
somewhere where people dont look at marriage as the be all of happiness and fulfilled life! Know what I mean?