Somehow, I am still pretty " normal " after loosing my sister in May, but my this is too much. I will try to keep this short, I just can't keep it all in anymore.
We had two 16 year old sons living at home....one my birth son the other my husband's son I raised since 1st grade. Anyway, my husband and I have always been VERY hands on with the boys sports, school parties, etc... Well, his son turned 17 and ran away last week...to his Mom's that lives in TX..she has NEVER been to Louisiana EVER since he has been here! The law says at 17 we can't make him come home, but are still responsible
I will try to have him emacipated. Well, NOW my son my heart and soul, my reason for living, the one constant in my life ( I had him right after I turned 15 ) and I gave up everything to be the best Mom I could, I wanted him to have everythig I didn't. Most of all the understanding of how important a college education is to provide well for himself and oneday a family. He is a great kid, good in school, always been in at least one sport, usually 2 - 3 at a time. Anyway, NOW he says he leaving as soon as he turns 17 and has been baiting me, cussing me, like he is trying to make me throw him out NOW....I don't want him to go so I won't ever throw him out....he will turn 17 next month....I can't stop thinking about him walking out and the law not being able to do anything.....they are still babies! They do not have the tools they need for life yet. He says he is still finishing school....I would be shocked if he didn't. I mean Next year is suppose to be out time for graduation planing and all that....I just don't know. I know nobody is perfect, but I look back and try to see what I could have done different and I can't see where I could have done more....I took off work to be at everything possible and was at 99% one year I worked they gave me all of his games off. He dosen't give me any reason except all I ever do is hollar at him. OK, like that is what I just wake up in the morning looking forward to screaming at him
I have cried so much, but it hit me the other day.....If I never did one more thing for him I have gave him a better life than I had. As a parent that was my main goal. I hope one day he will see that nobody will love him and stand up for him like I do. I just hope that day is soon. As far as the one TX, the DA found a loop hole that could have made him come back if the police would have went with it, but hubby said he didn't want him back here, the stress was not worth the hell he was putting us through. He is way different than my son as far as school....I had to stay on him ALL the time and punish him to make him even try to get his grades up.....then he started skipping school, hanging with the wrong crowd, etc... We were going to send him to youth challange in hopes it would motivate him in FEB. he lied saying he really wanted to go all the way up until his b'day...turned 17 and left...telling us he was working. I am so past that anger b/c we put so much into trying to help him. I don't know how I can get through my son disrespecting me....he was not raised to act like this and how I can know he is in school around the corner from our house, but not in his room. This shouldn't be legal. I just feel numb and don't really care about anything right now.
Thanks for letting me rant,
Angie