My heart aches for you. I know how much it hurts to say goodbye to a child. My youngest daughter left home at 17 and we haven't had much contact with her. She stormed out because we refused to let hre spend the weekend with her boyfriend -- a sorry sob we had never met. We have had very little contact with her and not a day goes by that my heart doesn't feel like it is breaking.
My oldest son chose to go to a local college and is living at home. He spent the summer after he graduated from high school working on a horse farm in Kentucky and couldn't wait to get back home

. RG takes me shopping just to get me out of the house.
Our middle son chose not to go to college and is living at home and working. Btw, this is the son who has been cooking dinner for the past two nights. What a love!
I guess I am the lucky one in the bunch....... I miss the heck out of both the boys even when work late