I'm sorry you're hurting so badly
You did a wonderful thing when you handed over your baby to the man who lost his wife.
When my husband died I was lost. My house became where I slept, not my home. It was big, empty, and hollow.
When I got Lucy, I began to live again. That furry little creature helped me thru the worst time of my life. She cried when I left for work and greeted me with kisses when I came home.
I can't tell you how many nights I cuddled her and cried myself to sleep.
Believe me, I don't think I would've made it without her. You've given that man a reason to get up in the morning and something to look forward to during the day.
You're a wonderful person.