[Mom2BabyNatalie]

Thanks, as ALWAYS, for the kindess of each and every one of you... it seems it's never-ending...

I've resolved to just visiting Natalie's thread once a day - which is still tough... so please know that your words and prayers are getting through - even if I don't respond individually....

I've taken some time today, to view some other threads here on YT - respond to a few where I felt I could be of some use to someone.... and reflected on a few others which brought tears to my eyes yet again...

One thread mentioned how her baby was being a little "obnoxious" in that she CONSTANTLY wanted held, loved, snuggled.... and I thought to myself... "Oh to have it so bad!!! What I wouldn't give to have that... " - - - and missing Natalie, still.... I looked down.... and realized, I DO have that! ..... There was my faithful little shadow!

Gracie has been following me around PLEADING for my attention for days.... not understanding.... and my not understanding WHY she wouldn't just GO AWAY!!!

I felt bad then.... but worse now.... because as awful as I've been since Natalie passed - in just not being there for ANYONE else.... there was my little Emily Grace.... at my heels.... just wanting to love!!

There are other dogs in the house.... Cessy... and the big dogs.... but they all have their "favorites".... Natalie and Gracie are MY BABIES... and shame on me for denying her....

So.... I FINALLY picked her up..... in seconds, she was sound asleep... perfectly content..... THIS, was all she wanted...

(you can see I'm still in my pj's... sorry 'bout that)

I think we're getting there...