Oh I should mention... When my ex and I got engaged, I had dreams of walking down the aisle towards my 'fiance' and he had NO face. No features I mean. Just a blank slate. I think subconsciencely I KNEW that the marriage would never happen, that he was not the one. Many times over the years I often though when I was mad "If I didnt get back with him, id be over him by now" NOT a good mind set! I also lost passion and lust for him as the years progressed. It was not there anymore, and we were both holding onto something that vanished long ago! UUGGHHH! It would spring up every once in awhile, Id catch a glimpse of the happy 'meant-to-be' couple we once thought we were.... but it was not that way anymore.
Anyways I love that quote bc Ive been REALLY living like that since my break up from my ex. I realized that for 10 years I lived his life 100%. Whatever he wanted, we did, else he'd threaten to leave me, break up with me, go sleep somewhere else, etc... so Id give in to avoid fighting. Some say pick your battles but it got to the point where I didnt even fight anymore.. I just didnt care anymore. I also let HIS opinions affect and 'speak louder' than what my heart and soul told me. Im learning now to listen to myself, my intuition, my heart and know that Im doing whats BEST for me. Sadly its a bit late to be JUST learning these lessons, but I was blinded at an early age.
He had his good qualities too, he was not a monster. I met him at a VERY difficult time in my life, my parents were getting divorced and he had 'been there done that' and really emotionally helped me through it!
Again, good luck girl!
