[saphire]

Oh sweetie, I know how you feel, I lost my Mom when I was 36 and my Dad when I was 40. She had been ill for many years and Dad passed suddenly from a heart attack. I am now 51 and I still miss them all the time,( I was an only child) but the pain is not there anymore. I grieved for a long time, but it DOES get better. One of my worst experiences was seing Mothers Day cards at the newsagent soon after her death. I sobbed there in the store.
Now whenever I think of them I smile, the pain does ease and the memories become happy. Give yourself time, grieve at your own pace, don't let anyone tell you to get over it. You will, but when your heart is ready.
Sending you lots of hugs.