[Buddy-licious]

I know you feel that you are the only one that has ever gone through this because I remember feeling the EXACT same way you do!!!!!! My dad passed away and I COULD NOT recover from the heartache!!!! I cried uncontrollably everyday!!! I tried everything....diet, excercise, went to a therapist, talk to my preacher, talk to friends, read books, etc... Finally after 5 months of DEEP depression I went for professional help!! My OB doctor immediately saw how depressed I was and he gave me a medication for depression. Wthin weeks I was back to my normal self. I only stayed on the medication for about 3 to 4 months but it really helped me!!! Sure I was still sad at times but at least I felt like I could go on with my life. Now with no medicaton, I still really miss my Dad but I have moved on and only cling to the fond memories of him. I pray that you will be able to do the same!!! Your mom would never want you to be this sad. I cannot tell you what to do.....I can only tell you what helped me. (medication is not for everyone but it was the right thing for me) I will be praying for you!!!