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Originally Posted by Pessica  Well more time has passed and I'm still trying to get through a day with more positive thoughts. Its very hard. I came here late tonight as I have not been able to sleep well the past few days. I wait till my body is so tired that it just falls asleep on its own, I can't close my own eyes cause when i do i see the most graphic images that are like torcher for me. I'm sitting here in tears because I keep replaying what happened to Zoey in my head, and seeing it happen. I feel like I'm going to be haunted forever with this image. Its the most painful thought and feeling I've ever experienced in 24 yrs. I feel like I failed Zoey and did not protect her enough, I feel like I let her die and it was my fault that I did not protect her enough to prevent what happened. I feel like I caused this happy joyful beautiful and precious sweetheart so much pain, the most tramatic sudden death a dog can have. I feel so much pain for her and I feel so bad.
I'm so sorry for venting like this. But I feel I can come to all of you for this support to help me get through it.
I couldnt give Zoey a full life and I feel like a terrible person for letting such a young baby die the way she did.   |
First of all, you don't have to apologize for venting to us. Our arms are wide open to comfort you in these trying times. Pour out your pain for a lighter heart. You are not a bad or a terrible person and it was never your fault that she has to spread her angel wings at a young age. Accidents do happen since they are unforeseen. Many others struggle throughout their lifetimes for another chance in the past to show or say 'i love you' to their loved ones, who were taken away in such untimely manner. Zoey left with a heart full of the love you have given her. She was a happy joyful beautiful and precious sweetheart because of your constant love and care. There are those who lived their full lifetimes yet have not experienced love at all. You never failed in giving her a life full of meaning, of happiness and of love. Cry as much as you want to wash the pain and the hurt away and it will make you see clearly zoey's rainbow shining through the clouds to end your stormiest days...