awwwww... its ok to be bitchy! Hey NOONE can live in that much pain all the time without being bitchy either!
The hysterectomy WILL make you feel better... and girl.. you are a mom! moms never let anything keep them down. I remember my mom after her hysterectomy and she was a trooper. She was down for about a week but thats about it. Also Im going back about 12 years ago also, things have progressed medically since then.
As for anesethia (sp?) well its a very real fear you have. Sooooo many people fear going under! Don't feel the need to try to hide your fear or crankiness! Its all real and you are entitled!