[michiko]

I haven't posted for sometime now... I don't know if anyone has noticed....

I have been dealing with some health issues for a month now. It got me into some sadness... but then motivated me to healthier life style. So I am doing some changes in my life.

When I had my 31st birthday on past August, I was feeling very down about my age and felt really old. Well I know that 31 is very young... but for some reason, I felt different comparing with my past birthdays. I am a doctor hater. So I didn't go to a doctor for 3 years (I think.) I finally made an appointment at Massachusetts General Hospital near my work abd got a new PCP. I like my new PCP, she is great. I made an appointment for a few days after my birthday, the same week I was feeling a bit depressed over my age. PCP makes a huge difference I realized. I am not a doctor hater any more (for now).

Ah.. bad news. I am official *old* (maybe not necessary) but sick for sure. I could have been hospitalized then, but my doctor wanted me to try my best with medication. So I started taking prescription medicine. This is the first time that I am taking medicine that I don't know how long I have to take. There is no stopping date. And I have a treatment plan.

I am 31.. and dealing with health issue. It is too soon... I didn't expect myself to be dealing with this in my 30's. Every time I go to a doctor... I am told to add other medicine... and increase the dosage.. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I also wanted to do something for myself other than taking medication. So I started taking a walk everyday (joined a gym with 1 year committment-- very expensive gym so I have to keep it up.)... trying to eat healthier... it is always hard when I am stressed out. Unfortunately my work is getting much stressful each day. But then I cannot quit or change my job because of my immigration status pending.. So I am hanging...

I have a very good friend, Patti... (you know)... who supports me every day... and helps me with my insurance questions... (since she was working for insurance company.... for long time).

So that is how I am doing...

And Haruka.. she is always supportive to me... I am so glad that she is here with me..