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when i first met my husband, i had been attending this church for 3 years and LOVED it. he was never big on going to church, but he went with me every sunday for a year. well, when his best friend and him parted ways (he also went to that church...that is how i met hubby) he decided he didn't want to go to that church anymore. this is the church where we got married. well, the pastor called him and tried to tell him that he was sorry about what happened between him and his friend, yadda yadda...and then he said "i'll call you some time and we can get together for lunch or coffee or something." well...that call never came. so hubby thinks the pastor is a liar. well, we quit going to that church. it has been almost a year now since we quit going. my best friend, who has always gone to this church with me, also quit because of this. well, she approached me this past week and asked if i would like to go to church. and we decided we would re-visit the church we loved so much for so long. well, i told hubby about this and he is NOT happy. of course, he is not going with me, but he also will not talk to me this morning because he is so upset that i am going to a church where the pastor "lied" to him. i think he is blowing it a bit out of proportion. I can understand him not wanting to go because he doesn't want to see his ex-best friend, but we are going to a different service. Jason goes to the first service, and we are going to the second. and you know what...i can understand Jim not wanting to go at all. I really can. it's his choice, i would never force anyone to go to any church. i have not said a word to him about not wanting to go. but I want to go. this is the church where i found myself. where i learned to love myself, as well as others. this is the church that helped me through SOOOOOOOOOOO much in my life, including my grandmothers death and a miscarriage...among so many other things. this is my home church. i miss it. i really do. and i need it. i have noticed how much i have changed since i quit going. i hate myself. i don't know how to love anymore. and i just have completely slipped away from my spirituality. I never wanted to do that. but I did.

but he will not talk to me this morning. he is really that upset. i have tried to talk to him about it, but he won't budge.

i just don't know what to do. but I am now going into the bathroom to fix my hair, and then leaving to meet my best friend at church. and I will enjoy it. that is one thing I will NOT let him take from me!!!