Denise, do not feel bad. No one is mad at you at all. You did the right thing for Macy and for you guys. If you guys are not ready then you just simply aren't. Maddie was a precious little girl and i still get so sad cause she comes up in my mind often. I know you guys loved her soo much! Macy will get a family that will love her the same way, i know it because i know that Jill will do her best to place her in a great home. My prayers go out to you.