I don't want to sound like Dr. Laura, but my advice is this: You started dating two guys, back and forth living with two guys, while and soon after being married to your husband. I think you should put all men out of your life for a couple of months. Take that time to just be with female friends, shopping and rock climbing and doing the things you enjoy doing. This will give you time to reflect on your life and what you want in life. Don't rush into anything, just have fun for a while. Things will turn around for you eventually, but right now this is all too much.
