I'm still trudging slowly forward. The thoughts of being at the Vets last Tuesday, of the Vet walking into the room and feeling Cody shaking more and more as the Vets prepared the needle still echoes in my mind vividly. Having the guilt feelings of "I should have waited for a little longer" before going to the Vet with Cody, also echoes in my mind. And having no-one understand how much I loved my little guy was really putting me in a very dark place. But with this forum's understanding of what I was going thru with Cody has helped me immensely. I was completely on the darkside and now I see light again. I THANK this forum very very much for your understanding, love, prayers, and advice. I am starting down a new road, by myself, without my best friend. I think of him every moment, and I talk to him too. I am not shedding the tears so much now, but every once in a while one does leak out.
Taking some advice from this forum, I talked to someone about some good memories of Cody, finally. It was hard to think of good things about Cody with all the guilt I've been feeling. But I'm trying to push over that hump. It did make me feel a little better talking about him. But advice I wont be taking is "get a new dog". Not yet. I am not ready emotionally for a long while.
I have been trying to think of ways to mark Cody's grave in my yard. Flowers, engraved pet stone marker, ect. Anyone want to share ideas on this?
Again, THANKS so much everyone. I needed a mountain of love and understanding and prayers this week and I got all of that from your posts. Your kindness has really helped me.
Dave54 |