I have removed all of Cody's toys, bowls, petfood, bacon strip treats (he love them). I'm keeping his favorite blanket and leave it on the floor where his bed was in my bedroom. I'm talking to that spot every morning when I wake up. I got a frame for a nice picture of Cody yesterday (I included that picture in this post). Going to find a nice wall to hang it on. Before leaving yesterday to go to town, I stopped by where I buried Cody in my yard, and asked Cody if he wanted to go for a ride and told him to get in the car. He liked going for a ride.
I have no idea when the pain will stop or lessen, but I will keep moving. I feel so guilty for this new freedom of not having to help him outside, not sharing my food with him, not leaving the car run while I run into the store. I sat down in a restaurant yesterday and ate with alot of guilty feels thinking Cody was still in the car. We mostly ate in the car with Cody. So many changes I must make now that he's gone.
I want to thank everyone here for all the love you have given to Cody and me. You didn't know Cody or me, but you made us feel better. I hope to come here more often with a better feeling than I have now and maybe with time I can help others a little bit with what I went thru/going thru. |