i can remember how you feel....when i first got bella i rememeber callling my best friend and crying tellign her how i couldnt do it, and it was too overwhelming, and just so much!! she just told me to stick it out and how much better it gets. well about a week later bella got really sick and i almost lost her, thats when i found YT. from that moment on nothing has been too much that it wasnt worth it. YT seriously saved me!!! there are so many amazing people on here that are soo smart and willing to help. anytime you need help or want to vent, or even to share a funny story we are all here for you!!!! good luck!!! its all soooooooooooo worth it!!