[joy and bella]

Hi everyone! I just want to say thank you, thank you so very much. i am constantly amazed at the support that YT brings and i am so grateful to have all of you. Your words have brought me so much comfort and they mean so much to me. For those of you that can feel my pain and have been in similar situations, i am so sorry for you, and i will keep you in my prayers. Thank you for sharing, it helps to know that i am not alone in this pain. I am doing ok, i continue to wake up every morning and am filling my days by spending time with people i love. bella is a great help, i dont know what i would do without her! she is my reason for living some days. Some days i dont realize she is gone, other days i would give anything in the world to call and talk to her or just to hold her one last time. I have been away at college so i am used to going long periods of time without seeing her, although we talked a thousand times a day. her birthday is coming up april 9th so that will be hard!! along with easter....she called me her bunny and everywhere i look i see them right now. A yearning is the best way to describe it, and that is followed by a feeling of emptiness. there is no love in the world like a mother loves a daughter and vice versa, but i find comfort in God and in the fact that i know she is peaceful and in heaven. i will forever miss her, but i keep reminding myself that i now have an angel watching over me forever. i am crying now and cant write much more, but i will keep everyone updated, and thank you all so much!!!!!!!!!!