I too am so so sorry about the loss of your sweet mother. I know first hand how unbearable the pain is and can only tell you that time really does heal the pain and that your mother is still here with you even though you can not see her. Let the great memories of her fill your heart. Give yourself as much time as you need to grieve. There are some great books out there to read about loss and the grieving process that may help you through too. The relationship that you had with your mom sounds exactly like what I had with mine and when she passed away unexpectedly in my home at 63 yrs old I did not think that I would get through it. People are so good at times like these and you need to take all of the love and support that they offer because it really does help. If you feel that you need to go talk to someone like a doctor please dont hesitate to do so. A year after the passing of my mom I went to a wonderful doctor and he actually put me on an anti-depressant.....about two weeks after that I felt like the world was just lifted off of my shoulders. We can get ourselves into such a funk after such a shocking tragedy that sometimes we just need a little extra help. My thoughts and prayers are with you, and please, if you ever need to "just talk" feel free to PM me. God Bless
Tami |