[Pipersmommy]

I am so sorry for your loss. I understand exactly what you are going through. Everything that I read you had to say was my mom. I never though I would get over my mom death. She was everything to me. We took vacations together & everything. She was truly my best friend. I lost her at an early age also. I was so distraught I had to seek help through my Doctor. I was crying non stop. A year passed and it wasn't getting any better, I was at the end of my rope. When a miracle happened. My mom came to me in a dream, it was so life like. I found myself walking in a garden with her, & she told me it was wonderful where she was at,That she was with her mother, & it was time for me to stop dwelling on her death. She would be with me in my heart & watch over me until it was my time to join her. The dream went on & on, where I was able to ask all kinds of questions. I felt so guilty I wasn't with her when she passed, I had just left the hospital. She told me it was all right, that when the Angels came, she knew it was time to go & I would be fine. I told her I wasn't fine & was having a hard time living without her. She then said that is why she came to see me in my dream. After our forever long night of talking, I was able to understand that she would be always with me in spirit, & that some day I would be with her again. When I awoke, I felt the world had been lifted off my shoulders. I still cry when I talk about her, But I have been able to move on. I do talk out loud to her everyday, & tell her I love her. I am crying now as I write this, & it has been 19 years.
I pray your mother will come to visit you, & help you through your pain, like mine did.