I got layla at a very difficult time in my life.. but thank god i got her because she honstly saved me. layla came to us on the 20th of May and on the 10 of June my long term bf broke up with me. I moved back to Sault Ste Marie for the summer to be closer to family and away from eveyrthing that remind me of him and looking back at that time i wasn't the best mom i could have been to layla... i would put her in her crate a lot because i didn't want to play... and i didn't take pictures like i shoudl have or enjoyed the time as much as i wish i would have... i feel like a horrible mom for having done this to her... while she gave me a reason to get up every day. i don't feel like i put her first... i was so busy dealing with my own crap that i didn't pay all the attention to her that i should of.. and now that i am over my ex i feel like i wasted that time when i should have been paying attention to her... and while it was a long time ago.. i still feel SO guilty over the whole thing... i look at her sometimes and i could cry because i cna't remember what it was like when she was a puppy.. thank god for the few pictures that i did take... and my parents make me feel bad too because they stayed here in london for the summer while i was in the soo and they tell me how they missed out on her when she was a puppy and they don't know what that time was like and will never get it back... i just feel horrible... i hope you all dont think i'm a horrible mother... i just having a hard time getting over the feeling of guilt
