Thank you everyone. I feel better. You guys are just the best. I have forgotten the fact that whatever people do, don't do, say or don't say you will never please everyone. I am so used to trying to please everyone as I am new to the family and it is wearing out on me because no one is trying to understand me and where I come from to the point that I am feeling frustrated and pretty upset. At the same time, I also feel in a lot of ways, I am being mistaken without anyone even asking me questions and talking to me!!!! I do not want a human kid and that does not mean I am a bad person, cold-hearted etc! Its fine they dislike me because from the start they have not liked me and the first image is hard to change. I am a tough girl anyways. I just don't understand why people could be so judgemental (without knowing much) and cruel to someone who does not have a lot of social support here. I keep telling myself I am tough but I feel like crying....argh!!! |