[Morkie4]

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there are other issues including suspicions of cheating (found a girl's number in his phone.. she claims they have been dating for a year.. while we were together, and found two other voicemails from other women as well. All of which he claims as friends, or ex-girlfriends from the past wanting him back) I don't know if he's worth it. I love my dogs, and my mind tells me to leave him, but my heart isn't ready to take him out of my life. I don't trust him whatsoever, he is very abrupt with me on the phone, he never tells me where he is going, and since we are seperated (until I can figure things out with the cheating) he has never once asked about my dogs. But he did get them a diamond collars for my birthday.. does that count for anything?

I think you sort have already figured it out...........just scard to put those feelings into action!!! A big change in your life. If you can't trust, you don't have a relationship, you have little to base a future with him. I've been down that road...........an ugly, bumpy, sad, depressing road!!!! But once you get over it and find out that your life can be so much better, you will be happy and look forward to a future with someone that appreciates you and your furbabies! AND he is out there!