Its funny .. I guess Im a little emotional today myself haha but last night I was sitting on the couch with my babies, I have 2 boys, same liter, brothers. One of them always looks me in the eyes and his eyes are so expressive! My other one never looks me in the eyes. I pick him up and tell him to look at mommy but he won't. EVER! I feel sooo crushed sometimes because I don't feel as connected to him as I do my other one
. Then this morning as I was leaving for work, I gated them into the kitchen and i was just talking to them and my little guy looked up at me and held eye contact for about a minute! I couldn't look away, it was like my feet were rooted to the floor! It was such a peaceful moment, like you said suddenly everything was right in MY world! I love my boys (both of them sooo very very much) and my little guy is always on my lap, he sleeps curled up behind my knees or b/t my legs under the covers ALL night and when I pick him up, he curls right up into me like a little baby. But it was the eye contact, that I was craving. He makes me wonder if he does love me. But this morning, it was there! FINALLY!! After 1.5 years I finally felt a connection! My other boy never sleeps on my lap, never sleeps against me at night, hates to be picked up, yet I feel soo connected with him because he looks me straight in the eyes and his expression is just sooooo loving!!
Anyways it was just a great moment this morning and Im glad I found this thread bc I was thinking about this and this is such a great place to post this. My boys got me through the hardest time of my life, when I wanted to give up and they turned me around. Turned my attitude around! Gave me reason to laugh & smile when I couldn't find it in myself. I am sooo attached to them and sooo thankful everyday that I found them. I feel so lucky & blessed to receive this much love! They really do complete me!
