If any of you would like to read my mom's obituary, it is here:
http://thomasfamilyfuneralhome.com/shirley_hanson.htm
Today was such a hard day. I was at the funeral home most of the day. I felt so bad when I saw her because she didn't look like Mom to me. Her face appeared too wide towards the bottom. I found that if I sat in a certain chair and looked at her, she looked like Mom. I am so heartbroken. I just can't believe this is all happening and keep hoping I'll wake up from this terrible nightmare.
Thank you all so VERY much for the beautiful bouquet of lilies and roses. I had them sent to the funeral home instead of here and tomorrow after the funeral, the funeral guys will deliver them to my home. They are breathtaking and the lilies are so huge! I am so touched and thankful for all my dear friends here. The funeral home takes pictures of each bouquet and they will be in a book they make, so I'm so glad it is there and a picture of it will be included in the book they make us.
I also got two gifts...one from Suz which is a music box with little angels inside and I'm to put my worries in there. It play...."Wind beneath my wings." How ironic that last night at my mom's house, I played one of her music boxes that also had that tune. After my dad died, that song was one we leaned on and now my mom is gone and I will think of both my beloved parents when I hear that song. Thanks so much, Sue! You are so dear!
I also got a beautiful live rose bush from Mia'sMom (April). It is pink roses and a couple are in bloom right now. I will plant it outside in the spring. It came in a darling planter that looks like a picket fence with flowers growing on it. Thanks so much, April...You are such a gem!
Debbie (Monday) sent an electrical heater that was in case Mom's furnace went out again...we could keep her warm. What a heart you have Debbie and I am so thankful for you. Now that mom isn't here, I will use it down in my sewing room which can get chilly at times. Right now, I don't know if I'll ever start sewing again, but I suppose I need time before thinking about that. Thanks you, Debbie...you sweetheart!
Thanks to each and every one of you who have been such support and sent such loving messages and prayed! Those of you who put poems or sayings, I will be keeping them and put them in a scrapbook I'll be doing. Words cannot express my gratitude to all of you dear friends.
Tomorrow is the funeral. Today, at times, friends or family would laugh and visit as if it was any other day. I guess that's healthy, but I just don't feel like it's a time to laugh. I'm just so sad and can't seem to find any laughter.
Thanks dear friends...I love you all! I'm going to bed soon. I'll sleep on Mom's pillow...I did last night and I can smell her sweet scent.