My heart is aching so bad. I can't imagine life without my mom. She just kept getting weaker and weaker and Friday we had to put her in a nursing home with hospice. She was too weak for any chemo treatments. She is the bravest person I have ever known and never thought of herself, but always worried about others. She even noticed Maddie scratching her ears a lot and felt so bad and told me I needed to get help for Maddie. This morn when the hospice nurse asked if she'd like her to pray and if she had any special thing she wanted her to pray for, Mom said, "Pray for everyone." That was meaning us. She never thought of herself, but all her friends and loved ones and even perfect strangers. She had a heart of gold and I was so blessed to have her for my mom. I keep telling myself that she's with dad again and they are together and happy, which helps, but it still hurts so bad I can hardly stand it.
Thanks to everyone here who has been such support. My mom made me promise I would thank everyone personally and I will do that eventually.
My daughter is coming to get me soon to go pick up my younger sister at the airport. She was about to board her plane today and called my cell and found out the news.
Who am I going to call every morning when I wake up. I called Mom every morning...and other times...and then I'd tell Maddie..."Let's go visit Grandma!" Maddie would be so excited she'd just squeal with delight and couldn't get up those steps to mom's house fast enough. Maddie loved her and Mom loved Maddie. My poor Maddie...she keeps looking for Grandma. Her little heart is breaking too.
Hugs to all of you. |