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Originally Posted by ssmiles1980A Thank you so so much for writing this to me, after a long day of crying and fighting with will, i have read what you wrote several times, and what you said touched me in everyway, thank you for taking the time to write this to me,im worried that my anger for will isnt going away, i mean i think its time i end that feeling because i know its not really how i feel, because i love him so much, i know i have been distant with him and when we do talk im either crying or yelling and saying hurtful things to him, and i dont want to do that, because in reality i just know the pain of losing her, i dont have the pain of being the one who stepped on her, and for that alone i know how unfair it is for me to be this way to him, i know he is hurting too, and im not helping the healing process, im only making it worse for both of us ....this just happened so fast that its so unfair, i know life isnt fair, i just miss her, i feel like i see her everywhere .....i just miss her so very much, i was so attached to her in everyway, we had a very short time together but i loved her just so very much, she deserved so much better, will says i need to start the healing process and i know that he is right, its just everday it becomes more real that she is really gone and never coming back . and it just hurts sooo bad
well i guess i just have to take one day a time
will went on to blockbuster to get a DVD so we can relax together and watch a movie ... have a great night my Friends
Love-Aub
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