Oh no I'm so so sorry !!
MY heart goes out to you and please try to remember that you loved her and she KNOWS THIS....that's such a terrible tragedy and I feel so bad reading .... but in time you'll see it for what it was....an awful ACCIDENT and you can't beat yourself up over it..... it could happen to any one of us....
sending you a hug and my condolences on your loss.....
May Asti Rest in Peace and fly with the angels.....