 Just wanted to Say Hello
the DR called me today, she was so wonderful at the animal hospital, she cried when ella passed . well she called me today and said that she took her paw print and sent me something in the mail special ...it just made me cry and cry, i thanked her sooo much, and i told her i will never forget her, i know she cared and did everything she could for my baby girl ....she said she would never forget us and especially ella ... that just touched my heart in everyway, ella has No idea how many people prayed and loved and adored her, im trying so hard to accept this, but i just cant seem to stop crying, my heart is just so very broken, and within myself im trying so hard to not blame my BF and say things i shouldnt when im upset, i guess this tragic accident is still just so shocking to me, it happened so fast ... i just cant believe she is gone , i expect to walk downstairs and see her in her crate bopping up and down and wagging her tail and i would let her out and she gives me tons of kisses .... i just miss her so much, i see her everywhere and just wish i had her back at home with me . I know it was an accident, i have accepted that, but i guess it just doesnt take away the pain and heratbreak right now ....she fought so hard , my poor little ella, she is missed so very much, my heart just feels so empty, i feel like i failed her in everyway ...i know i will forever hold her in my heart and she will always be with me in memory, right now its just too much, the pain is so overwhleming, i feel so guilty in everyway ......its just not the same here with out her, time is everything so i will take one day at a time, it will never take away me missing my little ella, i know time will ease the pain also ....i also want to say to everyone else who has a sick yorkie right now, i feel so bad because im not posting too much right now, just know that your sick yorkies will always be in my prayers, im just having a hard time, i just need some time to accept all this, and i have read all your post on and off and they have all made me cry and cry, ella just was so lucky to have you all, and i know i have said that many times, but i deeply mean it ... and thank you ALL from the bottom of my heart , you will all always be in my heart and thoughts .
Good night (( Hugs )) To ALL |