Aubrey,
I know that words mean little right now, but I want to express how sorry I am for your tremendous loss.
I was so sad to hear of Ella's passing.
I recall that unreal feeling of trying to accept the loss of my yorkie -- which happened just recently. It is more painful than words can say. Your little Ella was so precious and cute, and I hoped & prayed she would pull through somehow. My thoughts will be with you and your boyfriend as you go through this time of grieving. Sending big comforting hugs your way.
Hang in there and one day you will look back and smile over all your happy memories of Ella.
Take Care.