If you have read poor Aubreys story with baby Ella and it made you think of your 'fallen' boy, then I guess its totally normal to miss him more today for that reason alone! (not that you don't miss him everyday).
I miss my baby boy Stuart, he died Sept 05 from ingesting rat poison. Its a big mystery as to how he got into rat poison that Ive rehashed a million times and still never got an answer. He was 4 days shy of 5 months old. He was my angel through my seperation from my ex fiance at the time.
There are still days that I miss him so much, it actually puts me physical pain in my chest! I never posted the story here, at least not yet! But I soo know what you are going through today! If you could just stroke his soft fur and get one last kiss it could carry you!
Hang in there! Have a good cry (if you can) I always feel better when I have a good cry! |