omg omg im just so so sorry, my boyfriend literally just read that and started to cry, my boyfriend and i are sticking by each other, we have to for ella, she wouldnt want us fighting and me pointing fingers or blaming him wont change or help anything ......and i love my boyfriend with all my heart, he recently in the last 3 months helped me overcome my fathers death, my father past away at 51 from lung cancer ...i have been praying that my father is looking over on ella right now ... i know that might sound silly, but i have to pray for hope and faith ... its all i have now, im on pins and needles , i just hold my cell phone awaiting that call, i keep calling to check on her and there is no change, i know they must think im annoying but i cant just site back and do nothing, i feel so bad doing nothing, i just want to help her and hold her ....
another hour goes by and i think well that has to be a good thing right ?? ...but then i get so scared and think it could always get worse, this is just so hard, i feel like im losing my mind ..my poor ella ..... she must be in so much pain ....well its only 3 in the afternoon i have a long rest of the day left .......
