OMG Aubrey, I'm so sorry to hear this
Please don't let your boyfriend go on feeling so guilty, this could happen to any one of us, these little guys and gals are SO fast and they tend to walk right under you
Be there for each other, hold each other, and hold your other babies.
Ella is in my prayers and hopefully we'll hear good news soon. Hang in there, sweetie! You can call me if you want to, if you don't still have my cell #, PM me and I'll get it to you again.