Tammy, I just read this, this morning and I am so heartbroken for you. I hope that this breeder will give you your deposit back and I would really go somewhere else for a new puppy. Just to be on the safe side. I am sure that there will be a little puppy for you to love that's out there just waiting. I know that your heart is broken, but it's better that you haven't held him in your arms yet.
..