[marcerella02]

been having a difficult time lately... in june my bf of almost 3 years broke up with me and i was devastated... he moved on to a new gf rather quickly and i was even more heartbroken.. since then i've slowly mended my heart to be at at place where i still really missed him but i dind't think about him every hour of the day! i was home over the holidays and his bestfriend (a good friend of mine too) wanted to make plans to see me.. which struck me as odd because we don't hang out much anymore since josh (my ex) and i broke up. so anyways.. i went and saw him... just got caught up on eachother's lives but he was interested in my dating status (he has a gf.. so i knew it wasn't for him) and in the back of my mind i was thinking.. i wonder if he is doing this for josh.. but i let that htought go.. then a few days later i got an email from josh out of no where (we stopped talking once he got his new gf) wishing me a merry christmas and so on.. i was really taken aback by the email since i expected to never talk to him again... a lot of my friends are saying that since he moved on to his new gf so fast ( id on' think he's with her anymore. but could be wrong) he didn't have time to miss me or whatever but is now realizing what he did wrong and might be trying to get back into my life... i've been so sad lately... i miss him horribly and while i know i shoudln't.... i let myself think about what if he does come back and how nice it owuld be to have him back... (i know i know... i should never take him back.. but don't ppl deserve a second chance) anywyas.. sorry for the rambling.. but i feel if i didin't get it out its just going to get worse.. does anyone have an opinion... are all of these just coincidences or do you think he is really trying to figure out where i am in life and see if he can fit back in?? anything is helpful... i need to get my heart back together again...