[novemberstorms]

I feel horrible writing this, as my heart might not be understood, but I am feeling so guilty and I need to know if I am completely out there. I am just frustrated, because I think I am a good Mom to my dogs. I don't know if anyone else has experienced this.

We have two yorkies, Rocco and Bella. Rocco is a beautiful yorkie, I believe show quality. Bella is almost one year and is driving me crazy, she is driving the family crazy. My problem is I am so in love with Rocco...he is so pretty & tiny, but I don't feel nearly that way for Bella. I love her, she is cute and she LOVES me. I mean she loves me. She has to be on my lap and will push tiny little Rocco out of the way to get there. She is 10 lbs and he is barely 6 lbs.

She always has this sad, sad face and ever since she went into heat in October, she acts depressed. Can a 10 month old dog be depressed? I buy new toys regularly, I play with them both, they get treats. She isn't the brightest dog...training her to do anything is hard. Stay, sit, pee, poop, you name it, she isn't doing it. I have worked hard. On the other hand, we taught Rocco to dance in circles in one weekend. I seriously think she has a very low IQ, is that possible?

She is the most submissive dog I have ever seen...to the point it's embrarrasing, she lays on her back when a stranger comes into the house. I have thought of calling the breeder...not sure what I would say. My best friend has her sister from another litter, she is tiny, smart and full of personality. I am planning on getting Bella fixed after the holidays, because of her size, the other of her personality.

I try to show both of them equal attention and believe they are just like my kids were when they were little...dogs will notice who gets more loves. Bella is so needy and so jealous, I feel bad for Rocco.

Please, friends, I need advise. I am really frustrated.

Thank you.