You're not a nut!!!
I feel the same way!! And the worrying never stops, you just get moments where you get to breathe once and a while and then you go right back to worrying
If they are all active and trying to get a good hold that is good. Will mom let them be, meaning will she lay there and let them try to get a nipple? They're not constantly crying right? Do you have them somewhere nice and quiet where you can maybe just sit or lay near them and watch them to give them a little privacy while still being able to moniter what's going on? I am sure you are exhausted as well!!