oh hunnie I feel that way alot, but you have to take one day at a time and try to see the good things...there are good things, you just dont see them through all the bad.
2 years ago my dad passed away, 3 days after that my son left for iraq, for 14 months.
but there are good things too... your just not seeing them right now.
it will get better
(((((sashajade)))))))< hugs