Oh honey, I have an 11 year old who sounds just like yours. He can be the sweetest kid(once in a blue moon) but he honestly has made me cry. The back talking is horrible. I think it's hormones. He calls me mean at least once a day(because he can't have a second can of pop, or play videogames till bedtime or I won't take his side if he hit his brother). I keep trying, that's all you can do. I tell him I'm trying to make him be a good person, that it's my job. Hopefully someday he'll realize it(but I'm thinking it's not going to be this year). He gets good grades and isn't rude outside of the home, just here.
Just wanted to share that with you so that you know it's not YOU. Kids can be trying. My husband works a lot, and it's hard to get mad because he works so hard but it feels like I do everything myself. I clean...a lot. I volunteered every Friday for a few years at our local school. I liked it. I'm not a people person and I'm a homebody. It's hard, I know, it's depressing too. I read to pull myself out of it. I like fiction and find it takes my mind off of things. Find a hobby you'll enjoy so that your mind won't worry all the time. It can be something silly like finding a fragrance you might like(sample everything), hunt for the perfect mascara, do puzzles or crosswords, take up a craft. Just remember, everyone feels down and you're not alone. |