[tumblnstar]

well hi, normally i wouldnt be talking about my personal life on a yorkie website.. but im here all day so i thought that since you are like family and friends.. i might as well talk about this with someone!
i dont really have many girl friends...so i havent really gotten much feedback from any of my guy friends ..all they have to say is..."dude..stop being a girl" lol anyways.... heres my problem

my boyfriend phil and i have been together for about 2 years now. he is a chiropractor and i work in the office with him .. we also live in apartments RIGHT beside each other. we have an amazing relationship. we hardly ever fight..we share the same beliefs on everything..our families get along...basically everything that you would want in a relationship.. we have. he truly is my best friend. EXCEPT...
neither one of us had ever said i love you. secretly inside we knew that we did love each other..but i think it just became this little "thing" that we didnt want to say it first..almost like a competition. finally the other night after it just kept eating me away... i got up in the middle of the night and wrote this looong letter, letting him know that he needed to tell me if he loved me or not.. so that we could make decisions... and when i wake up he has flowers and is waiting to tell me he loves me and that hes sorry... so now at least i know he loves me!... but....

i am basically his wife... i cook ..clean...do laundry...manage both of our bank accounts...pay both of our bills etc... but for some reason... i dont think marriage is anywhere near his mind! (the other day i suggested a joint savings account.. and he flipped at the thought of putting our money in the same account...even when i take care of his everyday...i even have his bank card for pete's sake)
am i making life to comfortable for him?

im ready to get married... to him... and we always talk about our life in the future...but hes never said... we are going to get married... and its tearing me apart. does anybody have any words of wisdom?