[Layla'sMomma]

OK, I am losing it here. I am sitting and reading and just sent pictures of my Layla to a prospective new home and I am in tears. I miss my little girl SOOO much! She is staying with my parents to keep her away from the Alpha Bitch(Trinity) until I can find her a home. I just visited her tonight and she was SO happy to see me. Usually, Layla is in my lap right now, curled up asleep. Little tiny ball of silk. Now she isn't and I don't know what to do with myself. I miss her more than I thought I could possibly ever miss a doggie. I had not spent a single moment without her near me since I got her. She even took showers with me! And if I took a bath instead, she would perch on the edge of the tub and keep me company. Alpha Bitch is cleaning herself right now, quite pleased to be the queen again...but still is acting angry...so, nobody is cuddling with me at all. The three other cats are conked out at various stations around the house, but Trinity sits and glares at me between licks. I love Trinity more than anything in the furbaby category and it is just tearing me apart. I wish she was secure enough to realize she isn't being replaced. She attacks Layla so badly...I mean, it isn't even Layla going up to her trying to be her friend, Trinity STALKS her....then the others get in on the action. I wish I could find a way to have Layla stay, but to do so safely...and I just can't...my apartment isn't cut out in a way to keep them seperated at all, and I refuse to crate Layla all the time. It just wouldn't be fair to her. Anyway, I needed to vent and type out what I am feeling. Some probably think I am giving up to easily, but seriously, if you saw the last attack, the one that made me decide this, you would understand. They had her by the throat...and she is so small, and they are so big...I thought they were going to kill her...