Girl....
That was the most touching post ever! I called the new mom and read it to her and it had her in tears!! She asked me to email it to her for Baby Austin's Baby Book. I am great friends with the Adoptive family.. This whole process has been amazing! We really got to know them really well... Austin is lucky to have such amazing parents! He will be very loved!
As for Cameron... I am not cautiously optimistic..... I am so afraid to get my hopes up right now because the doctors are still not giving her a good report as far as her chances....
But they backed off her sedation today so they could do some assessments... And I got in to see her before they upped the meds.... I talked to her and she knew I was there!
I was floored! I told her how much I loved her, how much she scared me, and how badly I wanted her to come home with me! She started reaching for the Tube in her throat and I pushes her hand back down... her eyes were closed and she was still very dopey! I told her that I knew it was uncomfortable and that I knew she wanted it out... but that it needed to be there, that she needs to relax and not fight the treatments they are giving her... that they are saving her life.. and she nodded yes and agreed... so I just held her hand a while and told her about the family and everyone who had come to see her... and she made faces... lol I also took the opportunity to tell her how much I love her! and told her the things I was afraid I was not going to get to tell her.... Then I leaned in and told her that I would have to get going in a minute... and she really started shaking her head back and forth... saying no... and I reassured her that I was going to be close by, that they only let me be in her room for short periods of time... But that I'd be back soon... and more no head shaking... I just kept telling her I would come back... and then I said that I promised.. and she shook yes... I kissed her shoulder and as I pulled away she lifted both arms! 6 inches above her body! (this is huge by the way!) to give me a hug!!!! She could not hold them there for more than a few seconds... I put them down and I hugged her, she bent her neck and hugged me with her head and then opened her eyes.... for only a few moments... I doubt that she saw much... then I kissed her cheek and told her I would see her soon.....
The minute I left the ICU and entered the hallway I lost it! I cried for a good 40 mins.... Happy? Scared? Unsure? Terrified? Excited? Hopeful? All at once I was not even sure why I was crying... I just was...
I think it was because I really thought I was never going to get another chance to talk to her and tell her how much I love her! And I got to today... and she knew... And she did not want me leaving! It was all a bit much!!!
Thank you everyone for everything!! There is a long road ahead for her if she makes it.... All I can do is pray that she does... and you all have been wonderful in helping me do that... Thank you so much.