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Originally Posted by yougetthesmiles I have my 1st theropy meeting on Monday and I'm going to go with an open mind. I have been keeping a log book so she can get a general idea of what I'm going through.
This evening my husband and I went out for the evening and coming home it was raining pretty badly, and I started having an attack, I was so nervous, that I felt I was holding on for dear life. Then we were at this used book store and they have a basement, and I was so nervous about being in that building, I thought "what if it fell and I was crushed" just stupid things like that, or driving under a vie-dock, It petrifieds me and I don't know why, I used to be not like this and I just don't understand why I'm like this now. |
I know exactly what you mean. A week ago I went with my husband to a doctor's appointment. He was having an MRI and we had to go to the sub-basement of the hospital. As soon as we got off the elevator, I had the worst panic attack. I felt like the walls were closing in on me and like I was choking. I immediately tried to calm down by thinking of anything but where I was. I was able to regain my composure after we went into the waiting room and I spotted a window. It sounds so stupid when I tell people and I get so angry with myself for feeling this way. Like you, I was never this way. I just turned 30 this year and I have read that these things creep up on mostly females in their late 20's-early 30's. My husband is supportive and never belittles my experiences but I feel like such a jerk. Today we went to my mom's and we got stuck in a bit of traffic and I felt myself on the verge of another attack. I focused on the music on the radio and was able to control myself. I am sorry for rambling on like this but I just want to wish you luck with your therapy and hope it can help you overcome this. I wish I wasn't so embarrassed and had the courage to seek help as you have done. You are a much stronger person than i am. Best of luck to you!!
