Today is a bad day for me. I heard our song on the radio -- "You Are The Woman" by Firefall but I would sing "You Are The Katie". I would play that song every morning and sing it to Katie and we would dance around the kitchen together.
Sometimes I have good days and them sometimes I have really bad days. There have even been those really really bad days where I can't get out of bed. I just wish I could have her back ... even if only for a minute. Just to hug her and kiss her one last time. She died so tragically and it haunts me. That day when Jim ran upstairs with her limp in his arms and I took her from him and held her. I was so scared. There was some blood coming from her mouth. I knew she was dead but we sped off to the vet anyway. It's like I can't get past that day. I can't see her as the happy little girl she was, all dressed up and with pretty bows in her hair. Whenever I think of her, my thoughts always go to that last day where she was lifeless and with blood coming from her mouth. Sorry to be so grim but that's the mood I'm in today.
I'm just so depressed right now.
I think I may take a half day and go home early to hang out with Codie and Tia -- they always cheer me up.
PS - By the way, the chorus to the song is:
You are the Katie that I've always dreamed of, I knew it from the start,
I saw you face and that's the last I've seen of my heart.