I did the same! I'm sure I drove my breeder crazy, b/c I passed up my chance for several available litters while I waited until I felt like I had the celestial go-ahead!
I finally felt like the TIME WAS RIGHT and committed to buying Kiki, and then felt like maybe I'd failed to read God's guidance correctly when, immiately afterwards, we were given Mazie! But of course, having the TWO of them has just been wonderful, and I can't imagine it any other way!
Here's a prayer for you to know God's will (and we HOPE, of course, that it's for you to get a new doglette!
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