 panic
Vee...I guess I find it easy to discuss these things because so many people suffer, no one is alone and talking about it makes it so much easier to deal with... I am 60 and what I was ashame of at 30/40 no longer applies..we all find fault with the way the world is..BUT it is so much better in 2006 then when I was growing up and into my 30's..people just did not talk about so much stuff...the 50's really were a great time for me, it really was "Happy Days" and I loved every minute of it..but if your life was not "Leave it To Beaver", you just did not talk about any of it.
I had several Md's tell me it was all in my head..one told me I had panic to get attention...that jackxxx of a shrink convinved me I was mentally ill..and I believed it for awhile..if I was doing that to myself, then I must be really SICK in the head.
God never abandoned me, He was there all the time..I had to "go thorough" to get to the other side..I am a strong woman now because of it..would I pick panic to make me strong..heck no!..but it was the cards I was dealt.
My worst day came and I told God I perferred to die then live each day with non-stop panic all day..I laid on my bed and asked God to let me die right then and there...nothing happened LOL ,THEN I heard a loud thud on the front door..I went to look and it was the new phone books the guy had thrown against the door..
I started looking through the Physician lists..and guess what I saw..Nancy C. Rosenblatt, MD.." Panic and Anxiety disorders ONLY...I called, saw her the next day and that was the first day of my new life...perhaps many think I am sharing too much..but I have had dozens of people confide in me that they have panic and can not function any longer, so it is important to be honest..who cares if people think I am nuts?
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