 Update: sad
OK...I just took him back and asked her if I could return him. I said this took too much out of me and I think he stands a better chance of surviving with her than me. I already miss him sooo much. She said she is getting him taken care of then she will draw up paperwork for his return. I hate leting him go but I think that he would not survive with me here. I only want what is best for him and I don't want him suffering with me. He is a tiny Angel! I also don't want to risk having a male I purchased to be my futuer stud having genetic health risks that could carry to offspring. I have to have a healthy male! Next time I will do my research! I do however hope he survives with her and lives a long life! I wish things had been different and hope all goes well now. I hope she does all she promised and does the return. I am so sad. Crying is all I can seem to to today. It is so hard having a baby for such a short time...falling in love with that tiny life and having to let him go!!! All I can think of is that I MUST do what is best for him! No matter what I want!!! He is so important and I would give anything to have him survive...even if it means returning him to her. I guess I understand the old sayiong "If you love something let it go". It is just sooooo much harder than I realized it would and could be! |